This weekend I had to end a blossoming relationship. After a few dates I felt there wasn’t going to be more there. Unfortunately she felt differently.
This was the hardest thing I’ve had to do in some time. When I called her on the phone, I had a pit in my stomach and a bead of sweat on my brow. I think the let down was the hard part. I was letting her down and I hate when people do that to me.
Something she asked me, which was a valid question, was, “What are you looking for?”
Can that really be answered? Is it as simple as a bulleted list of items which a partner must have? I don’t think so. That’s why I felt I needed to end this relationship before it went any further. Even though this person had a lot of bullet points, they all didn’t add up to what I’m looking for. ( Even though I don’t know what that is )
Relationships are hard even when they have to end.
June 22nd, 2008 at 11:13 pm
Too bad you didn’t get the blame for this break up!